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Sunday, August 20, 2023

Haiti Trip Report from 2009

Sad memories, but I'm putting my 2009 trip report to Haiti here. 


Trip Report 1651: Haiti, a Troubled Beauty

By Andrew from MO, Winter 2009

Trip Description

February 2009: a family trip to Haiti.

Page 1: Flight and arrival in Port-au-Prince


 

Port-au-Prince, Hotel Oloffson

In February 2009 my parents and I went to Haiti to visit my sibling Flo, who since the previous fall was directing FOSAJ, a cultural center to nurture artists in Jacmel. We planned the trip with many worries about the reputation of Haiti, but also knowing of Flo’s enthusiasm for the place. Still, the worries were enough to put me on some medications.

There was not a lot of advance planning for what we would do there, because we could count on Flo to make most arrangements, and there isn’t a lot of travel information out there. I devoted the planning efforts where I have a lot of interest to the details of our flights. We arranged to converge, my parents from Boston and me from Kansas City, to get on the same flight from Miami to Port-au-Prince. The only option to make this trip on the same day was on American Airlines, and the fare was high for the distance. In my detailed planning I kept a spreadsheet of the gates that all the flights used for the previous month, and major delays. In this winter season, there were days that one or the other would have missed the connection to the last flight of the day, so we hoped for the best.

So I take note of flight details, but on these not-so-long segments, I’ll forgo listing all the door-closing and takeoff times for flights that were more or less on time. I spent the night at a nearby motel before my 6am departure from KCI. I found that the check-in counter opened at 4:30, and hoped it was o.k. to take the motel’s shuttle that left at that time, not worrying too much about extra time for an international trip. American still doesn’t have online check-in for international flights; I checked in at the kiosk, which read my passport and had the boarding passes promptly, asking me to go to the counter to get a “docs OK” stamp. I was carrying on my main bag with clothes, but checked (free on the international trip) a bag where I was bringing a few donated items for FOSAJ; I also put my topcoat into that bag. So that check-in was done promptly at that hour, as was clearing security; I saw that, as boarding time got closer, there was a long line at security, and the flight was completely full, as I wouldn’t have expected on a 6am mainline flight on a Tuesday in February. I’d last flown American when I took an award trip to Italy in 2006 (now I was banking their trips in Qantas’s program, but I eventually learned that the fare codes for most of these flights weren’t eligible for credit with them) and I took note of some new practices of theirs, in particular having a screen showing the first part of the names of people on the list for upgrades and standby.

I had a first connection to make at Dallas/Fort Worth airport (DFW). There had been extensive remodeling since I was last there, and I’d seen for the previous month that the connections could be all over the four terminals that American uses. I had chosen Au Bon Pain as a place to have breakfast, having noted their several locations including one close to my arrival gate. I had a cheese and egg sandwich, and I’m not sure that it was better than an Egg McMuffin. There are many connections at DFW that one may as well walk, but mine from Terminal A to D was one where it was best to take the Skylink train, which runs overhead offering a good view of the grounds and is inside security. Terminal D is the most extensively remodeled terminal and very nice-looking. There I took the flight to Miami.

I arrived there, which is about the last major U.S. hub airport for me to visit. On the previous day, the airline web site had posted our two arrival flights and the departure (on our day) as using three different concourses, but they wound up being close together in Concourse D, so not much trouble in that airport, which gets bad reviews. I got to the gate for Port-au-Prince and found my parents, who had just arrived. They’d spent the previous night with friends in Boston, and had their story about MapQuest directions there not working, so they asked a police officer for help, and he had them follow his car. I proposed that we pick up Cuban sandwiches at the nearby stand for La Carreta, which also has reportedly the best restaurant at the airport but it’s outside security. We had sandwiches at the gate and I was surprised, since I didn’t know they’d be joining us, at the arrival of my mother’s friend Tricia from St. Louis, with her friend Steve.

One thing mentioned in blogs of people going to Haiti was to take note of how many white people were on the flight; I noted a few. It got to be past the boarding time with no boarding call, and I got a cell phone alert of a 20-minute delay. There was a boisterous mood when the flight finally boarded. This was an A-300 plane, the oldest-generation Airbus wide-body, which AA will soon retire. There were empty seats, and people were still getting up as it was pushing back. On the safety video, I noted the subtitles in Kreyol. In flight, there was a cheese-cracker snack, and a landing card to fill out. The flight made up most of the delay, arriving at Port-au-Prince about five minutes late, at 4:15pm, so the time in the air was 1.5 hours.

On arrival, there was no jet-way; there were stairs down at both the front and rear. We exited from the rear; I was ahead of my parents, and on entering the terminal I was surprised to see Flo, who had asked to get to the baggage claim area to help us and was in fact taken through the diplomatic hallway to greet us before passport control. Flo thought he’d have to go back the same way, not carrying a passport, but he accompanied us through passport control explaining himself and showing his U.S. driver’s license. At passport control they tore off a section of the landing card for us to keep with our passports until we left the country. Then there was baggage claim, where we got our bags including my parents’ big bags of supplies to be given to FOSAJ, as many Haitians were bringing big bags. A month before, according to Flo, it was $1 to get a porter with a cart; now, with new carts, it had become $2.

Flo had hired a van and driver and had come with several people from FOSAJ. On exiting the terminal, we walked there as people approached us for rides; from what I’d read, the barrier from general people meeting flights had recently been moved to allow more walking space. Flo says that anyone going to Haiti really needs to have someone who knows the ropes who can meet them. We were to spend that first night at the Hotel Oloffson, where Flo designed the web site and could get us complimentary rooms.

As we were in the van and took off, I noted the crowds of people in the streets everywhere. One boulevard was on the edge of Cité Soleil, as if to put the shantytown up for view. We then went by the Champ de Mars, the central park by the presidential palace, slightly uphill and on to the Oloffson.

There was some indication of surprise at the check-in desk, and we were invited to sit on the terrace, taking in the warm weather as the sun was setting. Before too long, we got word that they’d misunderstood the reservation. Flo had said “arriving the 10th, leaving the 11th,” and they took it down as a reservation for the 11th. The one room they had with a double and single bed was not enough for all of us. Some people in the group wondered if that was the true story; there was a large group of French people there, and maybe our one comped night would get in the way of the large group staying several nights.

Anyway, we stayed on the terrace to have dinner while the people familiar with the scene figured out what to do. I ordered what would be a favorite, lambi, or conch, on a filling platter with rice. The lights went out briefly and came back; we could see lights around the city generally on. While we were enjoying the meal, Flo and the others were working out the options. The first thought was to go to Jacmel that night, but there are some warnings about being on the road at night, and the driver (who had been partially paid and was giving the round trip at a price low in the one-way range) wanted more money to do that. The group finally reported that one of them had located two nice apartments for us. This illustrated that when Haitians become your friends, they go to extraordinary lengths to help you, even as people in service occupations come across as surly.

While we were eating, our bags had been brought back and forth between the hotel and the taxis. There were various cab rides, some exclusively for the luggage, each at the $20 fare of any ride within a city. We had our ride to one of the nicer areas of town, with the apartment building where many people were waiting but there was no light. There were flashlights to get around. We were led up to the apartments, which had beds but were otherwise stripped bare. We each had a packet of purified water: with no receptacle into which to pour it, it would need to be consumed as soon as it was opened. As we’d get used to, there was a shower that was barely a trickle.

Page 2: Jacmel, part 1


 

Jacmel, street with FOSAJ

Having had a full enough day, we slept pretty well. We spent the morning peacefully; around midday, we loaded the newly hired van that had come from Jacmel. We went to Champ de Mars and visited the Musée d’Art Haitien, with a small painting collection and a restaurant in the courtyard where we had a light lunch. We stopped at a well-stocked grocery store, which in my advance research I’d learned was the best place to change money. ATMs are nearly non-existent, and travelers’ cheques are of no use; it’s best to bring greenbacks, well-secured, and change them to gourdes, which is promptly done at the service counter at the grocery store. Then we waited in the van. In brief, the reason for this stay in central P-au-P. was that someone in the group was giving information to the police about a crime against a friend of his. While we were waiting in the van, Flo also went to the police station to help, and eventually came back saying that the person who went to help had been arrested, and Flo was lucky not to have been arrested too. We took off as there was talk about the corruption of the justice system; this gave a bitter taste to the start of the trip, and was one of many crises that Flo would handle.

The van made its slow way out of town; a stretch of the main street out of town was bumpy and unpaved. We were parallel to the coast, which could be seen in the distance; then there was the turn south to the other side of the southern peninsula of Haiti. This was a two-lane mountain road like many that we could remember from Europe, scary from the curves but well-paved. The vehicles of United Nations peacekeepers were in evidence: we saw one wrecked SUV of theirs, and got a warning to hold back as a big rig of theirs was barreling down, needing both lanes in the curvy stretch. The ride to Jacmel was about 2.5 hours, a good part of it in getting out of P-au-P. The van delivered us to FOSAJ, where there were people to greet us but the lights were out and daylight was ending. We got a first look at the place before getting a ride to our lodging; at first it looked like I would need to ride in the bed of a pickup truck, but we found someone else who could give a ride, so there were two vehicles. There were many people out in the darkness with no lights; power came on a little later.

For the first part of the stay, we were in the B&B rooms attached to Piano Piano, an Italian restaurant out of town. We had a nice pasta dinner at the outside table. The rooms were cabins, with Tricia and Steve in one, and my parents and I in another, in adjacent rooms, with walls not reaching the ceiling, including being open to outside air, cold never being a problem. There were mosquito nets over the beds. The toilets and shower were across the grounds; the shower had two nozzles just making a trickle; one of them had slightly tepid water. There was a nice breakfast spread of fresh fruit, and eggs were available.

Piano Piano’s pickup took us into town; the men sat on upholstered sofa seats in the pickup bed. Flo negotiated their charge from $20 per ride to $40 for all rides during the stay, but we didn’t need many more rides. So, for our week in Jacmel, much of this discussion will be thematic rather than a day-by-day report.

FOSAJ is a cultural center devoted to developing local artists, and spreading the benefits of art in the community, including attracting visitors and helping the local economy. It occupies two floors in an old coffee warehouse, facing the beach, with a walled sculpture garden. The founder made some bad personal and financial choices and had to leave, leaving Flo as director, trying to keep the place going with minimal income, making appeals to philanthropic organizations, who have trouble giving as their endowments have gone south in the current economy. In the rest of the family, we have great concern about Flo’s choice to be in Haiti, and to be known by male pronouns, but look with hope for him to succeed in keeping FOSAJ going and help the community.

Jacmel was damaged by hurricane Gustav last summer; it was hard to tell what conditions could be directly attributed to it or general deferred maintenance. There was rubble in some streets; where there used to be electricity all the time, it was now on a schedule of: on in the morning, off in the afternoon, on in the evening, off at midnight. Buildings had signs of deterioration and electric wiring not up to code.

Flo spoke the local language of Kreyol (the spelling I prefer over Creole) well. The official language of French is not spoken much. In Kreyol, I could recognize the key words as similar to French, but the syntax was entirely different.

For money matters, the official currency is the gourde; there are 40 to the U.S. dollar. The confusing thing is that prices are often quoted in Haitian dollars, representing five gourdes, from the time when that was the fixed exchange rate to the U.S. dollar. Higher prices are often quoted in U.S. dollars. We had Haitians helping us who often spoke in Haitian dollars, so we had to multiply by five to see what banknote we should give, and divide by eight to see what that was in USD.

As I said, I brought greenbacks to change either at grocery stores or in a booth facing the street that Flo used in Jacmel. My father needed more, and that meant going to the bank, where people are screened with a security wand. The ATM card for his main account didn’t have a Visa or MasterCard logo and couldn’t be used for a withdrawal from a teller. He used a card with a logo, which meant first stopping at a desk and having paperwork done, then going to a teller. Before the end of the trip, he made a regular credit card cash advance, going several times before the bank wasn’t too crowded.

Rue Ste-Anne, where FOSAJ is, is quiet although it’s the last street parallel to the beach. That stretch of beach is dirty, but there was a nice enough restaurant there. Although we didn’t do that much wandering the streets, when we did there was a minimum of harassment.

We spent the bulk of our days at FOSAJ: my father brought artwork to work on, my mother completed a translation, and I could spend time reading as people expect me to do a lot as a librarian, but I often don’t do that much.

Even with the poverty, prices of many goods weren’t much lower than in the U.S., and prices for travelers, in a land with very few tourists, were high for what you got. Some high prices could be attributed to the presence of U.N. peacekeepers. It was especially expensive to be transported by means other than what the locals use, which are motorcycle taxis and in particular tap taps, covered pickup trucks with people on benches and hanging off the back.

An important development was that the four-door pickup of FOSAJ’s founder had been out of commission, but Steve brought a belt for it and got it running again, so we were able to get around more, most often driven by Jimmy, who had become Americanized but returned to Haiti; he was a tremendous help to us. Among the weaknesses in the infrastructure, a driver needed to be alert to the drainage ditches that were sheer drops along the side of the roads; one needed to be careful about pulling over too far on narrow roads.

Francesco, the Italian emigré owner of Piano Piano, hadn’t been there the first night. We met him the second night and had another pasta dinner. On Friday morning, he talked about there being potential problems for the weekend, because other guests were booked. Maybe someone could sleep on the porch, which had a ledge with a mattress and mosquito netting, or there could be some special setup for me, or I could be charged for double occupancy (the normal rate being 1000 gourdes or $25 U.S. per person regardless of occupancy). Since this was Carnaval weekend, the peak time for visits to Jacmel, it would be a problem to find another place to stay. Still, when we were in town, Tricia and Steve found another place to stay. We didn’t really understand that it helped Francesco out, but they said it did. They effectively checked out of their Piano Piano room at 9pm, and Francesco made some noises about it not being proper, but finally didn’t charge them for that night. On Friday and Saturday nights, films were projected there and there was a crowd, with some people sleeping on the porch.

On Saturday afternoon, Jimmy took Tricia, Steve, and me to the public beach at Cyvadier, where there were many people, and charges to park and enter the beach. We sat at a table and ordered food, and had to change our plastic chairs to the ones that went with the grill that took the order. Some musicians surrounded us and played, after we made them wait for other background music to be done, and Jimmy advised on what the proper tip was. We spent the afternoon as the time can best be passed, with Prestige beer and Barbancourt Five-Star rum.

On Saturday night was one of the crises that Flo handled. A catered fund-raising dinner for a group of tourists was scheduled for FOSAJ on Monday night, which seemed odd because they were checking out of the nearby hotel, making room for us, on Sunday. Well, there they turned up for the dinner on Saturday while a show opening was going on. Flo arranged for the restaurant next door to feed them.

Page 3: Jacmel, part 2 with Carnaval


 

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Sunday was the day of the national Carnival, Carnaval, or Kannaval, the big event bringing people from all over Haiti. It was also the day that room was opening for us to stay at the Hotel Florita, across the street from FOSAJ. Jimmy and Flo turned up early at Piano Piano to move us, as streets were being closed for the parade. We made the move, with Jimmy luckily knowing how to go down back streets. We checked into the Florita, where we had a two-bedroom suite, to be entered either from the balcony or through the bathroom. It was a nice flowery place, with flowers in evidence on the balcony but also with signs of deterioration in the 19th-century building, and intermittent power and water. The dining area, where we’d already had a few meals, was a flowery courtyard, mostly covered by a roof although there was an opening. They took credit cards for stays but not for meals; the one restaurant known to take plastic was the Hotel de la Place.

Some of us went to view the Carnaval parade. There was one option to view it from a balcony over the central street, but Jimmy advised that it was better to see it from a ground-level patio off one of the feeding streets. Wherever you go, there’s a charge for the seats. We sat and saw an afternoon of processions; so many people had devoted themselves to the show, with elaborate dressing, body painting, and papier-maché outfits and floats. They evoked the history of Haiti, Blacks in the New World, and the current problems of the country. There were also commercial floats, with people dressed as pasta packages or energy drink bottles. The straightforward American Airlines plane float put together at FOSAJ was not sponsored by the airline. There were long gaps between each display, we passed the time going through a few bottles of rum (with a great wood scent), and as dusk came people were going down the street in huge volume, with constant rhythmic music. The whole scene is better described in Edwidge Danticat’s short book After the Dance. We eventually returned to the hotel without too much trouble with the crowds.

Tricia and Steve were leaving on Monday. Before the trip, I’d seen references to air service between Jacmel and PAP, but Flo said it had ended when the plane crashed. While we were there, there was talk of the service resuming, but Tricia and Steve were able to charter a plane for $300 total to connect to their afternoon flight.

On Monday, I joined Flo in going to the Iron Market, where many goods are sold under a structure and in surrounding streets. We gathered fish and other things to cook over a wood fire; power had been on all day for the parade day Sunday, and was off for most of Monday.

We spent the final afternoon in Jacmel (Tuesday) along the private beach with the house belonging to the FOSAJ founder, where we’d had the chance to stay but his family members decided to stay and got priority. We had a picnic there until dusk; then it started to rain (the only rain of the trip) and we returned in a downpour with many people in the pickup truck bed. There had been FOSAJ events most nights; for the final night, my father did a slide talk (now on PowerPoint) on his artwork.

Page 4: Port-au-Prince and Return


 

My family at the Oloffson

For the return to Port-au-Prince, my mother was willing to take a public bus, either a tap tap or an old American school bus with at least three people on each seat designed for two children; this may have been a sign of things not being quite right with her, I didn’t think that I’d be the one arguing against taking public transportation, but the thought prevailed to hire a van for $120-150 rather than take the bus for $3 (the FOSAJ pickup was not advisable for this trip, with most of its dashboard warning lights on). The driver wanted to leave at 7am because of another commitment, but we left later, giving my father a chance to stop at the bank for a cash advance before we left. We had a reverse of the drive to Jacmel, over the mountains going through a busy market in the middle, then along the coast to the dilapidated streets of P-au-P.

We got to the Oloffson, where the reservation was done right this time, checked into our suite, and had lunch on the terrace. We had the chance to look at the gingerbread house structure, reportedly Charles Addams’ inspiration for the Addams Family house, and the setting of Graham Greene’s The Comedians. It was on large grounds, and had rooms named after celebrity guests. The suite had some class, but one could see structural problems, and the water pressure was weak. We wandered the grounds but weren’t much in the mood to get out. For the afternoon, I mostly sat on the balcony. There were many sounds from outside, including a lot of chanting from a religious rally. Flo and I finally went out as dusk was approaching; we did a short walk around with many people out and weren’t bothered. We were back for dinner at the hotel.

The next day we had our flights back. I was going via Fort Lauderdale, leaving at 11.40am, and my parents were going via New York JFK after 3pm. I had seen on American’s Web site that PAP is one of the airports where they advise 3-hour advance check-in. They don’t put Rome, where I think it is advisable, on that list, so I wanted to aim for that; Flo said it wasn’t needed, but he tends to cut things close. I also didn’t want my parents to go six hours early. Flo arranged for a taxi driver attached to the hotel to give us two rides to the airport for $20 each instead of his normal $25 fare. The rest of us went to the terrace for breakfast before Flo was ready, and we didn’t understand that continental breakfast from a buffet would be included; we ordered à la carte for a charge; I had an interesting herring omelet. Finishing that took me past the 8am taxi time, but there was no irritation from the driver, and I said my good-byes to the family when I was ready.

The taxi got me to the airport around the 3-hour mark; having kept the small bag that I was thinking of leaving there, I had two bags to check and a shoulder bag to carry on. A big group of porters in red converged around the arriving cab, and three each took one bag. They entered the terminal through one door, while I went through the adjacent door, needing to show my passport to enter. Flo had said it was standard to give a porter $2 as he provided a cart; this group surrounded me saying $20, and I gave them $5 each. There was one stop for a manual inspection of the checked bags, then check-in; I was early and there was no wait. There was security and exit passport control, where I returned the section of the landing card that had stayed in my passport on arrival. There was an upstairs area with a lounge and duty-free shops, where I made a purchase of Five Star rum. Back downstairs, there was one side for American Airlines departures, another for all others. There was another security check to enter the AA gate, and my one chance to see Haitian television, with talk of Carnaval merriment. I had in fact been earlier than I needed, with this being AA’s first flight of the day and on a narrow-body; it may be more hectic with the later wide-body flights. Still, it was nice that I got through formalities quickly, and the gate area filled up shortly before boarding, a time also marked by a brief power outage. On exiting the terminal to the tarmac, I picked up my rum purchase; I was rare in having gotten one bottle; most had gotten a box of four. As the plane taxied away, I noticed jet-ways on the upper terminal level, perhaps ready to be implemented; there had been signs of construction in the gate area. Delta is planning to start service from JFK in June. The flight took off, and good-bye Haiti.

We arrived at Ft. Lauderdale (FLL) early, around 1:30. I’ve heard that international arrivals at Miami airport are best avoided; at an airport like FLL, without many international arrivals, the problem is that they don’t provide much space to arrival formalities. Having sat towards the back, I was at the back of the line. We were in a passageway before the immigration hall, and officers said which side was for visitors, which for residents. The residents, many with Haitian passports, had the longer line, but that line moved faster when we were in the main hall. I eventually got processed at the crew booth, with questions about the purpose of my trip and my agreeing that Haiti was interesting but troubled. My bags were delivered and off the belt when I got to the customs hall, brief questions there, then the drop of bags for the continuation was marked with someone holding a sign as a car service driver would; I made sure to put the rum bottle into a suitcase.

International arrivals are at Terminal 4, and AA’s departures are at T3; the crew had said that it was a short walk between terminals; better to do that than the bus ride the long way around. When I booked the trip, the fare was available with two options with the same late arrival in Kansas City, changing at both FLL or DFW, but a choice of where to have the longer layover. I’ve learned generally to select the first flight after an international arrival (contrary to what I’d do before an international flight), but because of the reputation of long delays in flights out of PAP, I went with the long layover at FLL. I was out of customs at 2:20, and my departure was at 6:10; my immediate thought was that it would be more interesting to have the longer layover at DFW, with more concessions; maybe they’d even let me get to KC earlier. I went to the AA check-in counter, devoid of customers, and tried my luck at the kiosk. I got error messages, and the agent, who’d been playing with a child, said that because I’d checked bags there was no way of changing my flights. I wonder if it would have been different if there had been a kiosk or an agent with a computer by the bag drop.

There was a place to leave carry-ons, I’d been to the area recently, and it crossed my mind to try to get to someplace interesting, but I finally sat and read, at seats outside the security checkpoint, where there were signs saying to enter only for flights within two hours. It got to that time; the airport web site, which I’d researched, said that the concessions in that concourse closed at 5:15, but I found that they were open until 7. I had barbecue at Corky’s, which I’d known to be good at Memphis airport, but it wasn’t so good here. I had the flight to DFW, with some empty seats; the connecting flight was at a different gate then my cell phone alert had said; it was a crossing from Terminal C to A done by moving sidewalk. I was crowded in on the flight to KC, where I bought a bottle of wine whose label evoked an Italian train ticket, some kind of signal to me. The flight arrived at 11.30pm and I got home.

It’s difficult to put together my final thoughts on this trip. I went with worry for my parents and myself, but also knowing of Flo’s enthusiasm for the place. Although nothing bad happened to us, I didn’t really get over the worries. One hears a few stories of terrible things happening due to crime or infrastructure problems, just as sometimes happens in places with the safest reputation. One can look at Haiti’s problems and hear the reports that much of the blame comes from the way other countries have treated it. Also it’s an interesting economic situation when people who get money from relatives in the U.S. aren’t motivated to go for the meager-paying jobs in Haiti, and then U.S. economic problems have their effect. People widely have cell phones, and that makes some aspects of life easier. There are stories that Haiti’s current stability could come undone. I will try to think the most about the warm time in February, the great scenery, and wonderful people living through hardship.


Monday, July 22, 2013

Helping Flo's dream

Flo had been working on making the film Kathy Goes to Haiti. The people who worked with him are working on making that film in a different form: I hope that people will consider contributing to it. See details at the IndieGoGo site

Monday, June 21, 2010

Flo's element was air: Flo memorials, June 2010

Since they call for such different perspectives, I will post here about the memorial events themselves, and separately about the travel there and back.

I rode with Barnaby to my parents' Vermont home, joining the many people who were arriving, including my cousin Mike who lives in Taiwan. Friends were being put up on various couches in the house and with neighbors.

On Friday was the opening of Flo’s memorial show. There were works by other artists and by Flo, reconstructed by Brian and Sue; there was an excellent turnout of people including some I knew from long ago. In addition to some of the art being beautiful tributes, there were moving tributes in poetry; reminding me of how I had about five minutes notice to give my high school graduation speech, I was asked to read a poem I’d never seen before. I don’t know how it went, but I did that.

Saturday was the day to bury Flo’s ashes. We hope it was an improvised graveside ceremony done as best was possible. A big group gathered, there were more moving readings, and the task fell to me to put the cremation box, a sailors’ box, into the ground, on my parents’ land, surrounded by the baby trees of the orchard that Flo wanted. Earth was put back over the box, and we took the ashes that hadn’t fit into the box, from the vase where they were held, and spread them at the base of the trees. I was choked up, but a question I hold within myself is whether I've cried in a proper way.

There were catered sandwiches and other food, and people stayed through the day and into the night. The people who collaborated with Flo put together a shrine in the wooded lower part of my parents' land; I went there and had my first look at Flo's studio space, only developed in the last few years.

So people showed their love and sorrow; it's so difficult for me to take. I offer a link to my photo album. I also offer Sue's album. It's best to conclude with this beautiful tribute, composed by my mother and read by my father at the show opening:

Flo’s element was air. He literally sculpted it, capturing it in bold inflatables that evoked the spaces in our dreams, the secret realms of cats and children. In a statement composed for his San Francisco show six years ago, he said:

“I sculpt spacious negatives, in addition to forming the exteriority of the architectural object. I animate the forms with air pressure to enhance their spiritual effect. If something breathes, responds to external forces, yet has a will of its own, in some sense it is alive. Or is it possessed?...” He added in a footnote, “I must stress the anima part of the word ‘animate’, from the Latin word meaning soul….”

The other three elements inform Flo’s work and life as well: water that persists both as a recurrent theme and in his persona of the sailor who submits himself to the power and mercy of the sea; fire that almost claimed his life and Brian’s in Baltimore ten years ago. Back then, once we knew they were safe, we came almost to think of it as a trial, like those the lovers Pamina and Tamino confront in The Magic Flute. Today I know it as the purifying element that reduced Flo’s vivid body to a little box of ash.

And Earth. Flo passionately believed that humans could save the planet, that he personally could enrich and coax the soil into yielding food for his family and his Haitian community. But just below the earth’s surface, last January 12, Damballah, the great serpent, the ancient force underlying the earth’s flawed and brooding structure, uncoiled, twisted, thrust up his head, killed a quarter of a million Haitians. Ended Flo’s life in an instant. Shattered all of us. And so in death Flo teaches us that there is a fifth element, one that we did not recognize at once. That element is love.

For love of Flo we have somehow gone beyond ourselves, beyond our human limits and expectations. I think of Zaka and Susan’s desperate and heroic vigil in Jacmel; of Brian’s commitment to Haiti’s future; of the extraordinary art that has already been made in Flo’s memory. Of artists who will emerge from ruined Caribbean towns and from Vermont, or New Mexico, or rural Italy. All the places, all the lives Flo touched, and touching, changed.

We have become Flo’s heirs. And tomorrow we bequeath his mortality to the earth he nourished, to the young apple orchard friends planted to honor him. The poet James Merrill who knew Flo as a child once wrote, “The soul is memory.” Remember that. Remember Flo.

Sunday, April 25, 2010

Chicago trip

I took a weekend trip to Chicago. At Kansas City airport, I knew that the virtual strip search machines were installed at the Southwest Airlines checkpoint, and I could be facing my first confrontation over opting out of that inspection. The machine was on the left side after you entered, and I was able to turn right; anyway the machine was roped off, not in operation.

With my A34 boarding pass, I found the high-legroom exit row all open, and took the window seat. I have enough drink coupons that I had a cocktail even on this morning flight. On arrival at Midway Airport, I went to the transit station to take the el into town. I planned for my only use of the transit system to be the round trip at $4.50; I knew that the cash machines didn't give change; I saw a machine that sold passes for credit card payment, but the attendant said it didn't sell regular tickets. Anyway, I had $4.50 in cash to buy a fare card, but when I returned I saw that on the back side of the bank of machines, there was one that appeared to sell regular fare cards for credit cards. I took the Orange Line to Roosevelt, and took the rather long transfer route from the elevated platform to the underground Red Line, which I took to Grand. That was close to the hotel where I was booked, the Comfort Inn on Ohio St.

The room wasn't ready yet, and I checked my bags. I'd talked to Sue earlier, and it was established that we'd meet in the late afternoon. It was getting to be 11 a.m., and I decided to have lunch at the Billy Goat, the "Chizborger" place of early Saturday Night Live fame. Then I went across Millennium Park to the Art Insitute, a main interest of this trip being to see the new Modern Wing.

Entering there, there was the main entrance hall; in the galleries to the side, there was a show of photography of the U.S. South by William Eggleston. I went into the main building for the show of Matisse from 1913 to 1917, important in his movement towards Cubism and less objective work; he cited "methods of modern construction." I had a quick look at some American work in the main building. Back to the Modern Wing, designed by Renzo Piano: I didn’t like that there was no clear direction to the galleries. The main way to go was by stairs, on the side rather than a grand staircase, and I suppose that is part of encouraging energy saving. The signs going by gallery numbers were a little unclear about how one should visit the galleries. These galleries had modern art of varying interest to me; some of my favorites were by Balthus and Magritte. The third floor gallery was on the north side, and there was no connection to the Bridgeway from Millennium Park to the third floor on the south side. I went down and up by elevator to exit that way; if I’d entered by the Bridgeway, coming in by a restaurant, it would have been a confusing way to enter. I understand that the concept is that the Griffin Court, the main entrance hall, divides the two pavilions of the Modern Wing.

I went back to the hotel and found my small room ready. I went briefly around shopping streets, got back, and got the call that Sue and Barnaby would be picking me up. Flo had seen Barnaby off for his departure from Port-au-Prince the day before the earthquake; I’d picked this weekend at random for a Chicago trip, and then learned that Barnaby would be there for a conference. They came to meet me, and I learned there that we were going to dinner at Sue’s parents in the distant suburb of Batavia. The expressway out of town was jammed with construction, but it was eventually clear going. Barnaby had taken the small jump seat in the back of the pickup cab, and I learned that he was dealing with tremendous nerve pain.

Sue's parents gave us a nice steak dinner, and I admired how much support they give to Sue for her unorthodox choices. The conversation went differently than I planned, where I wanted to piece together details about the events around the earthquake and Flo's death, but I learned a lot during the drive back. Sue and Barnaby were planning to be at parties well into the night, but I declined to go, ready to be at the hotel at midnight and make a little use of my room.

I got up in time to have breakfast when it opened at 7, checked out, and walked to the State/Lake el station rather than go with a transfer. I got through the turnstile just as the right train was pulling in at 7.50; I got to Midway a little over 30 minutes later. I'd printed my boarding pass at the airport kiosk because the 24-hour mark came shortly after my inbound arrival. The system didn't go right to the boarding pass from my credit card, or my Rapid Rewards number after that; they then asked for my confirmation code, delaying getting in from the opening second, and I got pass B9. This meant that I could go straight from the walkway from the el station to security without going to check-in at the upper level. The TSA directed my line to a checkpoint they'd just opened in an area off to the side.

It was a full flight, not too eventful I'd prepared part of this document offline at Midway and on the plane. At KCI, with free wi-fi, I paused on arrival to copy what I'd written from my netbook to Google Docs. When that was done, the doors out of the sterile area were closed; I was able to get out where there was an agent to ask for assistance; I wasn't about to cause an incident by opening a door with an "Alarm will sound" warning.

Saturday, January 16, 2010

In memoriam: my brother Flo



Flo was lost to the world in the Haiti earthquake of Jan. 12, 2010. I will post here some thoughts that come to mind, it being impossible to write a true life story.

A new baby came into my family as a major surprise when I was 17, and we were living in Italy. This baby Flora of course took our life in a whole new direction, and meant my parents effectively raised two only children. She learned the ability to speak in English and Italian at the same time, and it took her time to learn correct gender pronouns.  When we were together, she gave me an opportunity to extend some of my childishness as I liked; I remember some apparent absurdities like my asking if she'd have a beard sometime and she said "Yes, because I want to be a man."

The family ended its full-time residence in Italy and moved to St. Louis when Flo was in elementary school. Flo's fearlessness came into evidence: my mother remembers picking her up at school with darkened, ominous skies; while other students were huddled inside, Flo was out dancing in the rain.

Flo went to college at the Maryland Institute College of Art, with an official major in fibers, but with a lot of interest in inflatable sculpture and performance art. She developed a free-spirit style. She remained in Baltimore for a few years, and organized artistic activities in some impoverished neighborhoods. In January 2000, the loft where she was living caught fire in the middle of the night; she and her boyfriend Brian barely made it out in time before it burned completely, and they lost their pets and belongings. The third resident, Sue, was away on vacation in Puerto Vallarta; Flo and friends did detective work to find out what flight she was taking and meet her at the airport and alert her, rather than have her take a taxi to the loft and find it gone.

Flo was on the edge of disaster at other times: some kind of burn on her at a performance, and having to evacuate her neighborhood because of toxic gas from a train.

Flo entered the M.F.A. program at the School of the Art Institute of Chicago, and continued the variety of work, graduating and doing summer teaching. Having bisexual preferences was fine and wasn't something that routinely needed to be mentioned, but Flo came to want to be known as male and took testosterone treatments. I needed to support any choices, but it was a difficult subject to broach with people and start using male pronouns. As I edit this post, I finally say "brother" rather than "sibling."

He went to San Francisco and was involved in the film Maggots and Men, with a mostly female-born cast playing male roles in the story of the Kronstadt Rebellion in Russia. An interest in his art for display was agrisculpture, promoting sustainable living.

Flo had a long-time fascination with Haiti, making some visits and conducting workshops at the FOSAJ arts center in Jacmel. He decided to commit fully to that, and learned the Kreyol language. Because the FOSAJ founder had made some bad decisions and had to leave Haiti, Flo arrived in fall 2008 as FOSAJ director. My parents and I visited in early 2009, and felt a wide range of sensations about Haiti: admiring people's coping in poverty, but also feeling risk. Not so much in terms of crime or harassment of white people, although Flo often had money go missing; more in terms of the infrastructure, with electricity off half the time, and the safety of vehicles and roads:  My Haiti trip report

Flo spent the summer in the U.S., doing a lot of FOSAJ management by long distance, and returned to Haiti in fall 2009. He was involved in another film production and the Ghetto Biennale. In December, the bad news piled up: Francesco Fantoli, the Italian owner of a B&B/restaurant where we stayed outside Jacmel, was killed in a mugging in Port-au-Prince. Then Chal, the security guy who really gave Flo all the administrative knowledge he needed, died of a heart attack at 43. The funeral delayed Flo's return to our family's Vermont home for the year-end holidays. Also looming was that the founder's family seemed to be close to selling the FOSAJ building. With Flo's brief visit, I had a foreboding feeling.

I realize that I've given a "mostly the facts" account, and I should give an idea of what others have said about him: boundless energy, remarkably creative, and devoted to Haiti, as well as to cats. It's hard to put down my own thoughts:  I looked with wonderment at so much that he accomplished.  He said that our skills complemented one another, but he had a good talent in my supposed forte of finding good travel deals. The links at the end can give a better impression.

When news of the earthquake broke, Tuesday at 5 p.m., the focus was on Port-au-Prince; Flo had taken a longtime family friend to catch his flight out of Port-au-Prince on Monday, and was returning straight to Jacmel. my mother talked to people close to the FOSAJ founder who said they thought Jacmel had very little damage. The phone didn't connect, and I made use of Twitter, which I'd just joined a couple of days earlier. The news from Jacmel was increasingly worrisome, and some pictures were coming out.

Sue, who had luckily been away at the tragedy almost exactly ten years earlier, was visiting Flo and conducting workshops at FOSAJ. It seemed like an eternity, but it was late Wednesday evening that word first got out that Sue was o.k., but Flo was trapped in a building and people were working to get him out. On Thursday morning, Sue reached my mother on the phone to give the news that Flo was gone, killed instantly in the quake. They were having drinks at the Peace of Mind hotel when the quake hit; Sue got out in time but Flo didn't. At this writing, Friday, Jan. 15, Sue vows not to leave Jacmel without Flo's cremains, and getting out will be difficult with the road to Port-au-Prince blocked.  I will soon be joining my parents for a memorial service in Baltimore; that's how I'm using the Southwest award that I mentioned being issued too early in an earlier blog post.

So, it will be difficult to go on with this huge gap for me and my family; I'll think of Flo with great love, and his loss reflects his risk taking and devotion to Haiti.

Update:  How great to learn of a collective blog devoted to Flo:  http://wearegoingwithflo.blogspot.com/

Update Feb. 6, 2010: I'm back from memorials in Vermont and New Hampshire. A travel angle: Air Force One with President Obama arrived at Manchester, N.H., airport as I was getting ready to board my return flight from there.

Excerpts from a family statement about donations:

Many of you will, and have already, donated in Flo's name to worthy causes, especially those devoted to Haitian relief which is desperately needed, both immediately and in the longer term. This is primary and we thank you profoundly on his behalf and on our own for that.

Some of you have asked if there might also be a cause that would be personal to Flo as an artist. In that regard we are establishing with the Maryland Institute College of Art, where he so happily received his undergraduate education and later taught briefly, a FLO MCGARRELL COLLABORATIVE PROJECTS FUND which would be for "Awards of up to $200 to be made upon the recommendation of the fiber department chair, to two or more undergraduate students engaged in a special creative project for the purchase of equipment, materials or services which they could otherwise not
afford." It was precisely ventures of this kind in which Flo thrived as a student, teacher and artist.

Gifts to this fund can be made online at www.mica.edu/give by
selecting "restrict my gift to" and typing in "Flo McGarrell
Fund".
[...]
The Vermont Studio Center, on its own initiative, is generously offering a residency for a Haitian artist in Flo's name. For more information on that you can go here.


Sue has posted links to causes that were helpful to her in the aftermath of the earthquake: Rebuild Peace of Mind

Report from the student paper at the university where I work


Important links:
Flo's site
Wide-ranging interview
Tribute with last pictures. Person with him, Barnaby, is the visiting friend who flew out on Monday.
Barnaby's video footage from Flo's last weekend